You find yourself moving on.

Im so procrastinating right now, i should so be cleaning my room and my car since im not in canton today, Saturdays are the only days im not so I should be taking advantage of it, instead im sitting here and well this seemed like a logical excuse to avoid any of that. haaaa. Anyways i got a message from Steven on myspace, his sergant died, and hes wicked upset because it was his best friend over there, i feel awful because i cant fix it and im not there., I hate when hes upset and I cant do anything about it. Hm, my dad isnt mad at me anymore, but he has yet to give me back his credit card.... Wait, i didnt mention that yet, have I?... well a few days ago my dad got a bill in the mail for his credit card he gave to me, apparently i spent way more then he thought i would, and he took it back from me, its not that im mad he took it from me, I just do not like it when my dad is mad at me, I feel awful. He gave it to me because he trusted me not to 'over do' it,. He didnt tell me i had a limit on it though so how was i suppose to know... I guess that just comes with growing up... I should have known i was 'over doing' it. Not to mention my phone bill was 140$ more then it should have been, god damn internet charges on cingular. I have unlimited texting and there is no way i can possibly go over my minutes with all of our minutes we have... its those hidden charges with the internet, oh well.... it happens. Im looking for a pink sony viao laptop, i guess it doesnt have to be a sony, i just want it to be pink and i know they have good ones, so if anyone knows where i can get a pink one let me know, im not too good with finding out where good electronics are,. The other night me and my friend got busted on campus, which im not looking foward to finding out what that entails.... Im so not telling my parents, ahhh.

I cant wait for steven to get home so we can move down to Texas together, im not so sure i'll like it, i dont want to get sun burnt.... hah. I just know i want to be wherever he is and i guess thats all a part of growing up, you find out who you are and what you want, & then you realize that people you've known forever don't see things they way you do. & so you keep the wonderful memories, but find yourself moving on. It's perfectly normal, or so ive heard.

Its been a hectic week, i've been going from school to work, i cant wait for the weekend... Actually i cant wait until next friday so me and Danielle Mary can go to watertown and have a girls day like we do every 2 weeks, since we have to get our nails filled every 2 weeks, it works out perfect. =] I love herrrr :)

im getting ready and then im on my way to school and then im comming home to go over and see my sister and nephew and nieceeee =]

Love <3 Steven Carlton Forsythe

I miss him everyday, and it seems like no matter how long hes gone, i only love him more. I was so afraid that when he left that the feelings would go away too, and that one of us would change our minds, but its proving otherwise, thank god. He means the world to me, and I cannot wait until hes home. Love is one of the best feelings in the world. To know that there is someone other then family and best friends that can come into your life and make such a positive impact, is an amazing thing.<3

Im just fascinated at the medical field these days, Doctors are handing out pills like there the only way to cure someone. I dont know if anyone else is aware of how quick doctors will perscribe an anti depressant or a pill for ADHD but i really think that even though doctors may know medicine, they shouldnt be able to perscribe it for psych disorders. Its very easy to trick them into giving pills, I dont know i just thought id ramble on that for a bit since i love Psychology.

Danielle Mary Atria<3

after reading Danielles' post i decided to reflect on our friendship as well. She has without a doubt been like a sister to me :) -- We won best buds of 2006 because no matter where we were in school, or out of school, nobody seen me without seeing her right there. We spent every waking moment with eachother, =] We've had our rough times but thats because we get a little protective of eachother, and i get jealous sharing her =] I love her to the moon, and she is and will always be my one-n-only true* best friend.

so i decided to post a vid of the worlds most perfect boys <3 John&Carmine Gotti; on Growing up Gotti.
They are amaziiiinggg. Im obsessed.

oh snappp.

so i was at work today and i recieved a phone call from a wierd number, so of course i answered it and i get "Is this tiffany?" ... and then "Hi, this is one of stevies friends..." and as soon as he said that i just had a million things running through my mind, of course i said "is he okay!" and thankfully i got a yesss, apparently he had one of his friends call me because his sarg. made him fly to germany but since he told me hed call he didnt want me to worry so he had his friend call, hes suppose to call from Germany tonight... well morning for him i think...

Ive been thinking a lot about moving down to Texas with him, im not so sure id like it- its way hott!. hah. But anything to be with him.

UGHHHHH

by the way; im trying to add people to my blog but my computer isnt cooperating!! =[

you'll never leave where you are, until you decide where you'd rather be, for me... its wherever you are.."

So last night i decided to go out with one of my friends and im still running on 3 hours of sleep, debating on if I want to go back out tonight or not.... Im suppose to go to Watertown with my boyfriends grandma tommorow morning and I have a birthday party to attend tommorow night. hmm.,

oh yeah- STEVIE called me yesterday. =] Thankkk godd. I asked him why he couldnt call for 3 weeks and he couldnt answer, i asked if things were safe and okay over there and he replied with "...kinda" i know it was just to make me feel somewhat better, but it didnt work. I miss him.

Army Girlfriend.

My boyfriend has been gone to iraq for a year just about, and he use to call me every 3 days at least, but i havent heard from him in over 2 weeks, its hard going about daily life when you have the weight of worry on your shoulders everyday. Ive been finding it hard to concentrate, and do anything that i use to love to do. Ive sent tons of letters, cards and pictures. Im just waiting until December when he can hopefully come home, if Bush isnt an ignorant asshole living nonchalantly, maybe his wives and daughters should be sent there for a year, and then 15 months and then be extended again for 18 months.

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